Where did this book even go? I was on page one and then suddenly I was finishing it and putting it back on my shelf.
(also this is me catching up on reviews because I’m bad at being organised right now, okay?)
I think that this is my favourite John Green book so far. I loved Looking For Alaska, but this one, THIS ONE. I wouldn’t say that I connected to the character especially, or her mental illness, but I think that the representation was really good?? I’ve read a lot on Goodreads where other people also say that the rep was really good?? So??? YAY??
THE OCD REP WAS BRUTAL AND HONEST. It wasn’t the “usual” representation of OCD: lining things up, washing your hands. These were COMPULSIVE THOUGHTS. And because of the compulsive thoughts , and it all from Aza’s perspective, we weren’t just hearing what it was like to have ODC, but we were experiencing it WITH her, understanding what it was like FOR HER.
THE BOOK IS JUST GENERALLY DEEP, OKAY?
“The thing about a spiral is, if you follow it inward,
it never actually ends. It just keeps tightening, infinitely.”
I think that the plot was actually really cool?? At first I didn’t really know where it was going, yet I still couldn’t put it down, and then it all just fitted together at the end and I was honestly left a little underwhelmed? Hmn. That’s not the right word. It was more, “omg and that’s the end?” I just—I want more from this story okay?
The main character obviously had a lot of growth, but as did her best friend. HER FRIEND SAID SOME REALLY SHITTY STUFF (spoiler:1) mentally ill people are loads of work, and 2) you’re literally a gift from god to befriend them and “YOU’RE SUCH A GOOD PERSON FOR PUTTING UP WITH THIER PROBLEMS” end of spoiler) But, I think that she grew from it, and she started to understand Aza, which she should have tried to do sooner, imo. And yes, there was drama in the book, BUT IT DIDN’T GO ON FOR AGES, IT WAS SOLVED REALISTICALLY AND I’M SO HAPPY ABOUT THAT #f-f-friends-not-being-catty.
The romance was also really realistic for the age group?? They weren’t all experts on relationships and that’s another positive for this book!! IT WAS REAL. It was so so real and MY HEART CAN’T TAKE IT. DAVIS WAS CUTE AND SMOL AND I LOVE HIS POOR RICH SOUL AND I FEEL SO BAD FOR HIM. And it didn’t have the trope of “here’s a boy now all your problems are solved” and this is why John Green is amazing.
“We never really talked much or even looked at each other, but it didn’t matter because we were looking at the same sky together, which is maybe even more intimate than eye contact anyway. I mean, anybody can look at you. It’s quite rare to find someone who sees the same world you see.”
I mean,,,,, who else but John Green could make this,,,, beauty,,, dsegjmw;eonfreg.
And the metaphor in the title!! SO MANY PEOPLE COMPLAINED AND I’M JUST HERE GIGGLING BECAUSE, POEPLE, THIS IS WHAT JOHN GREEN DOES, OKAY? John Green is basically a metaphor king, okay?
I loved the bittersweet ending, and I don’t feel that there was something missing form this book, BUT I WANT MORE. Did I cry????? DEFINITELY NOT… YES OKAY I TEARED UP. It’s a John Green book people, what did you expect?