Mid Year Book Freak Out Tag: Ok I’m Actually Freaking Out, Books, TBRs + Jumbled Words That Don’t Make Sense.

I am tired, but I am free.

I finally finished all my exams!! 

All 24!! Done! Finally!! Guys, you have no idea how happy I am right now.

Anyway, with my new found freedom I also have no inspiration, but hey. Ruby nominated me for this tag, so thank you!!! You have saved my tired and weary soul imagination.

I’m!! done!! with!! exams!! GAH, I’M SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW.

This tag.. nope I totally did not forget that this tag existed. Nope. nopeeee. NOT. AT. ALL.

Wait, hang on, we’re really halfway through the year??? This is crazy. 12 points to me for not realising before now.

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the best book of the year so far 

    • AUTOBOYOGRAPHY: NO DOUBT. No doubt at all. Like at all. I just want to hold this book forever and be a peaceful soul. This book is just amazing. It just tears out my heart and smashes it up into about ten trillion pieces.
    • THE KING’S MEN: I freaking adore this series and in my opinion, it just get’s better book by book. So many emotions, so much torture and mafia, and so much f a m i l y. When I think about this series (and let’s face it, when do I not think about this series?) I just want to curl up and sob. and whither. and fade away.

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the best sequel you’ve read so far

Well. The only sequels that I’ve read this year are…

So yeah these. I freaking adore this series and they’re not here because they’re the only ones that I’ve read so far. There here because even if I’dread 1000’s of sequels, then they would still be right here.

  • THE RAVEN KING: this book contains two of the most d e v i s t a t i n g scenes in the whole series (y’all who’ve read it know WHICH FREAKING PART I MEAN IM SCREAMING MY MINYARD CHILDREN!!!!!!!!!) and dfjngjfg I want to cry. This series is no bundle of joy, and this book is no exception. AT ALL. It’s so so dark, and it makes my heart so so happy sad.

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a new release that you haven’t read yet but want to 


A THOUSAND PERFECT NOTES: 7th July!! This book!! Was released!! I have it!! SO!! Not all hope is lost!! But. I just haven’t read it yet. I kind of freaked out in the bookstore when I saw it and then freaked out like a flailing seagull and bought it.

I’m so so so excited to read this, and OH BOY I know that I’m going to love it.

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most anticipated upcoming release 

Again, I can’t choose so… HERE ARE TWO. Let’s face it, you’re going to be getting at least two every time.

  • WHAT IF IT’S US: This sounds absolutely adorable and I love Becky Albertalli and I loved We Both Die At The End by Adam Silvera and oh gosh I’m not prepared for this cuteness that’s going to make my heart smush. I cannot wait to deal with the aftermath that will be my tears and sobbing and general melt-down.
  • A LADY’S GUIDE: I cannot wait for the British humour and the sass and the adventure. I can’t wait to read more about Felicity and gahhhh this sounds amazing.Screenshot 2017-09-29 18.15.41

the biggest disappointment so far 

uhhhhhhhh. Well. *awkward cough*


  • SIMON VS:  so I know what you’re thinking, HOW CAN I SAY THIS??? but, I think that the ending was just a bit of a let down for me and I just thought that the ending was quick and I just wanted m o r e. Not in the same way as “oh my gosh i can’t deal with not having more of this otp/story” (i mean, yes that too) but I think that it was more in the sense, “this ending was too sjgsjs” you know????? It was a mix of the two but like.,,, I don’t knowwwwww.

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the biggest surprise of the year so far 

9780007559220.jpg SOLITAIRE: So I was really hyped for this book (literally SO hyped) and it got way darker, and wayyy more mysterious than I thought that it would get? I expected it to be mindblowing, but it was mind-boggling. This met and exceeded my expectations by 1000% I was so surprised by the plot, continuously wanting to know more. IT WAS JUST SO MUCH MORE. 

I think that the darkness of this book is not hinted AT ALL in the blurb and descriptions, so the whole plot just RJGNSJKRGNRG-ed my brain.Screenshot 2017-09-29 18.15.41

 favourite new author


Can I just refuse to answer this?


  1. Alice Oseman (no surprise there) !!!!!{{{{“”””””£”£”£”£”£”£
  2. Nora Sakavic (again, no surprise)!!£$£@%£@%@
  3. Christina Lauren (djgksjgbsjg AUTOBOYOGRAPHY) @£$@£%£$%&&((&^

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newest fictional crush 

{D0ACDC2C-044F-48E2-A0F8-A792BE3E7000}Img400SebAStiaN from Autoboyograhy. He’s my platonic-crush (as in I NEED TO BE FRIENDS WITH THIS HUMAN) because I’m far too cynical for all that cavity-inducing-love-stuff.

He’s just. the purest. And the kindest. And no, I do not prefer him to people from my real life. pft. Who do you take me for? HA I tricked you, of course, I prefer him to real people (I got you 😉 ha )*. Honestly, he’s just a gem who really needs a hug, and a hug that lasts 1000 years and he needs it now. AND I WANT TO HUG HIM OK.

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newest fictional character

????????????????? pst!!!! What does this mean?

Lu, asking the important questions in life.

is this the newest character I’ve been introduced to? Is it my new favourite? WHAT DOES THIS MEAN. I think I’m just being really dumb guys. Help a squished potato out here, people. Why is blogging so hard.

me @ me

Ok, we’re just going to move on before I cry.  (oh look how fitting the next prompt thingy is)Screenshot 2017-09-29 18.15.41

a book that made you cry 

Well. After the traumatic experience ^^^^^ just then, I really don’t want to be thinking about this since this year I’ve cried at so many books, WHICH ISN’T A THING THAT I NORMALLY DO.


I’m just going to give you the pictures because it will take me approximately 60482 words to describe each book.

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favourite book to movie adaptation this year 

favourite review i’ve written this year 

*has to look through all my reviews*

I’ve hardly posted reviews on here, and tend to just go crazy with my ravings on Goodreads (on here too) and you can find my Goodreads here.

I think that one of my favourite reviews to write was actually for Simon Vs? It’s one that I actually published on my blog (here) or the review that I did for Autoboyography (here). I think that I loved writing these reviews because I had so much raving to do for these and I just remembered how much I ENJOYED THE BOOK while writing it.Screenshot 2017-09-29 18.15.41

the most beautiful book you’ve bought so far 


I think that one of the prettiest books that I got this year is either Neverknight (which ilsa the smol child sent to me because she’s amazing ❤ thank you again) or either A Thousand Perfect Notes which I bought very recently and cannot wait to read too! I’m reading both next month because finally, I am out of school and HAVE TIME TO READ AGAIN!!!!!!

Look at these pretty coverrrrssss:

and no, my bed covers did not get the memo that it’s not winter anymore (also these covers are polar opposites but THEY’RE SO PRETTY).

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books i need to read before the end of the year 

How long is this post going to get??? seriously??? This tag is basically begging for me to just keep on rambling. Not that I’m complaining. You probably are by this point, but suck it up because I still have things to say.

Basically my tbr is… long. So I’m not going to bore you to tears with that.

  1. Daughter of the Burning City by Amanda Foody (because ilsa has screamed at me ao many times to read this and I gave in about 6 thousand years ago).
  2. Radio Silence by Alice Oseman (because it sounds amazing and I loved solitaire and Elm screams about this SO much).
  3. I Was Born For This by Alice Oseman (b/c this sounds fabulous and NOT all about romance and the boyband dynamics have great reviews and the trans!! rep!! as well as different ethnicities and Persian Muslim rep!!! just all the rep here!! and did you see how much Lia raved about it in the collab??? OBVIOUSLY I NEED IT. )
  4. Anger Is A Gift by Mark Oshiro (this sounds like the love child of Angie Thomas and Nic Stone and I need it in my life asap. There’s also an m/m relationship and I can just tell that the plot is going to rip out my heart and stab it to oblivion).
  5. Girl Made of Stars by Ashley Herring Blake (May adores this book and talks about it so much on her blog and this sounds like such. a. good. book. it will destroy me, and I’m fine with that).

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I free you from my droning voice!! be free!! leave a comment! steal this tag (I’m not nominating anyone specifically!!) if you dare 😉 What books would you put in this post? Let me know!! ACTUALLY: What’s the biggest surprise (post and neg!) read for you this year? 


42 thoughts on “Mid Year Book Freak Out Tag: Ok I’m Actually Freaking Out, Books, TBRs + Jumbled Words That Don’t Make Sense.”

  1. AHHH CONGRATS ON FINISHING YOUR EXAM LU I’M PROUD OF YOU!! Also 24?? That’s so many I know you mentioned it before but I just can’t wrap my head around it?? WHY SO MANY THAT’S RIDICULOUS AND TORTURE? BUT YOU SURVIVED AND I’M PROUD OF YOU

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    yay! i shall eat some pizza for you to celebrate! 🎉

    AUTOBOYOGRAPHY IS AMAZING!! I just need to go find a corner to cry about how awesome it is. But I don’t really like Sebastian?? Sorry?? But he’s just ugh?? I’m so SORRY LU.

    I’m really looking forward to reading Solitare and Lady’s Guide to…! I also want to read GMoS!
    Wow. You cried at a lot of books this year.

    come join me in being a pile of not that tasty salt in my lonesome corner.

    I’m planning on doing this tag soon!! I’m so excited!! My first ever OFFICIAL FREAKOUT!!


      1. I HONESTLY DON’T KNOW but the whole idea of him just being so amazing was ugh and the instalove was like no. I mean he barely wants to know that he’s gay and then acts like he’s loved tanner since he met him? I find it slightly unrealistic but I dunno.

        I want to read it so bad!! Solitaire sounds so amazing!!


          1. Definitely! Maybe just slightly obsessed…? It is a pretty hard topic and I think it was done quite well but the story just didn’t click with me!



  3. WELL I GUESS ATPN LIVED UP TO EXPECTATIONS!!!! I NEED I WAS BORN FOR THIS AND RADIO SILENCE AHHH. I’ve only heard good things and I was born for this (muslim rep!!) I haven’t cried over any book this year WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. Oh nevernight looks good? Where did u get it from??? My biggest surprise was THE SUMMER OF US because I HATE fluffy contemp?!?! But this was soooo good!! AND ADDICTING. AND LIGHT. AND FLUFFY. which i normally hate but this was done so well. hope u enjoy gmos even tho i hated it. also idk about daughter of the burning city!??! I DONT KNOW IF YOU’LL LIKE IT IM SCARED. also pls read the astonishing color of after :)))) (me throwing all the books @ u and u drowning…an accurate portayal of our friendship, i mean twinship)

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    1. OMG YES 100000%%%%%%% IT DID.

      OG SGBSRG YES omg wut???? i’VE BEEN A MESS OVER EVERYTHING THIS YEAR?? How’s my mental state? fragile, going on non-existent hence me crying over everything all THE. TIME.


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  4. CONGRATS on finishing your exams, so, so very proud of you!! ❤ ❤
    I'm so glad you loved Autoboyography so much, that one is already on my TBR and I am so, so impatient to read it, I can't wait 😀
    I really want to read A Thousand Perfect Notes as well – I'm sure it will break my heart and I can't wait for this to happen?? I'm weird haha, but ahhhh very excited about this book.
    I AM SO GLAD YOU LOVED SOLITAIRE SO MUCH, I loved this book and everything Alice Oseman writes is amazing ahhhhhhhh you have to read her other boooooooooks.

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    1. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!

      OH GOD, A THOUSAND PERFECT NOTES!!! I am.. gone. in tears. a mess. i adore. I AM TRAUMATISED. JOEYYYY (fave smol being ever)

      THANK YOU IS MUCH OMG IT WAS GENIUS. PURE GENIUS. I plan to!!! I’ve got suchhhh a long summer TBR but!!! I will!!!

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  5. WELL I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS POST. Definitely not biased about a certain red butterfly book OF COURSE NOT (btw your twitter updates absolutely gave me life and now I will officially live 190 years longer because of this which is probably bad news bUT I AM HAPPY). And Autoboyography is my freaking favourite of ever. It destroyed me in the best possible way, OH AND SAME AS THE FOXHOLE COURT. Those adorable amazing nasty damaged cinnamon boys. 😭❤️Forever dead from Andrew spending 3 books going “Neil u are nothing” and then Neil’s finally like “AND YOU WANT NOTHING, BOOM”. d e a d They are precious and my favourites.

    (Also agreed so much about the spoilery part in Love Simon. 😭It made me sad. He was shy. He wasn’t ready for that. And like?? It felt out of character for him to be so chill with it. But I still love the movie! And the book!)

    And need to read ALL the Alice Oseman because I’ve only read Radio Silence but it is my fav.

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    1. I’M STILL NOT OVER YOUR BOOK AND NOPE, DEFINITELY NO BIAS HERE. I’m actually so glad because that means 190 more years of you writing books that can just kill me even more.

      I just reread the final book in The Foxhole Court and I DONT KNOW WHY I DID THAT TO MYSELF. The “you’ve always wanted nothing” *mic drop* sceNE IS MY FAVOURITE THING IN THE WHOLE SERIES. s a s s y n e i l



  6. OKAY WHY CAN I LITERALLY RELATE TO THIS ENTIRE POST DHSJSHS AUTOBOYOGRAPHY WAS MY FAVOURITE BOOK OF LAST YEAR AND I’VE BEEN MEANING TO REREAD IT FOR SOOOO LONG BECAUSE I MISS THESE PURE CHILDREN 😭😭 god and i FEEL you i want them to be my friends irl so i can protect them and write books together and creepily watch their adorableness dhsjsh

    ANYWHO .

    I NEEEEED to read the foxhole court but i literally have NO. TIME. and it freaks me out also i heard that this one guy speaks German??? GERMAN??? MY LANGUAGE?? i need these books in my life. OH AND SOLITAIRE!! I KNOW RIGHT!! that book took such an unexpected dark turn and i was SHOOK. also be prepared for the same thing to happen with radio silence and iwbft lmaooo


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    1. YES YES YES YES YES YES AUTOBOYOGRAPHY. JUST. I’ve reread it probably 4 times now?? no regrets.

      OMG YES GERMAN. 4 of them speak it!!! And there’s also French so?? I’m happy??? so??? happyy??

      SOLITAIRE. I’M STILL SHOOK. OH GOSH. I’m not prepared for that. oh welllllllll.


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  7. I love this post!! (You have such an entertaining and distinctive writing voice!) You’ve included so many books that I’ve loved and books that I want to read SO badly. 😍😭Autoboyography is one of my favorite books of all time; I love it so much!! It’s such a beautifully written book with great bisexual and Mormon rep. 💙💜

    I really want to read I Was Born For This and Girl Made of Stars as well; I’ve heard so many amazing things about both of those books. And I hope you enjoy Radio Silence!! It’s an amazing read; Alice Oseman is truly an incredible writer.

    Also, I think my biggest surprise of the year (in a good way) was The Gentleman’s Guide to Vice and Virtue by Mackenzi Lee! I didn’t expect to love it so much, because usually, I don’t read (or like) historical fiction. But Mackenzi Lee’s writing was amazing and captivating and drew me in almost immediately. (I love Monty and Percy so much.) Ahhh, sorry for this really long comment haha! 🙈


    1. THANK YOU SO MUCH!! 😀
      Ahhh AUTOBOYOGRAPHY!! I loved the rep!! And i can’t really talk about the LDS rep (whether it’s good or bad) but I’m not,,, you know?? Are you LDS?
      IM DYING TO READ THOSE TOO!! THEY SOUND AMAZING!! Alice Oseman!! omg!! Have you read heartstopper?? *pleasesayyes*
      SAME HERE!! I never thought that I would love it so much??? It was wayyy funnier than I thought it would be??? PERCY!!!!!!!!!

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  8. Oh my gosh A Thousand Perfect Notes is SOOO GOOD!!!!! You should definitely read it ASAP. Also Radio Silence is amazing!

    And ooh! I finally finally finally read The Foxhole court, and I now need to read the next two so badly, and AHHHHHH I’m so glad you told me to read them! Because TBH I probably wouldn’t have read them otherwise… And the first one was SO GOOD, and I am obsessed!!

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      1. OH MY GOSH I WANT TO READ THE NEXT TWO SO BAD!!!!! I’ve been busy, but I’m going to as soon as I have time!! BECAUSE AJDGKJHSGDKAGDKFFA SO GOOD!!!!!!

        (Seriously, thank you SO MUCH for telling me I needed to read them!)

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  9. I totally agree about Love, Simon ending! I was live DMing a friend and was just raging about changes from books and the Carnival scene bc let’s be honest if I was Bram, I would have high-tailed outta there.

    Also wow you’ve opened my eyes to a new way of putting in spoilers??? Such a cool idea! Gonna do this from now on!

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  10. I’ve been needing to read Autoboyography ahhh!! Can we just flail about all the books because they’re so amazing I can’t even

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